As I sit here, I can olny wonder what the new year will bring. It seems like in the last few days I have been at a crossroads. I am confused as to why there are so many things that seem to be harder for me. Why does getting pregnant not come easily to me? I know that I am not the only person who has fertility problems, but I am to a point that I wonder if trying all these drugs again will change anything. I am wanting to have another child and am wondering if it will ever come to truth. We have decided not to try the adoption route, we feel that John CLinton's situation is ideal(we have minimal contact and no requests for visits). So that leaves my crazy messed up body...we know that this body doesn't always work the way that I want it to.
Wow this post has gotten kind of deep..sorry to bring anyone down, but I needed to just get it all off of my chest. I think that Matt tries to be so positive that when I want to have a deep discussion he tends to not want to talk about it. I am hoping that 2009 will give us some kind of clarity in the baby way.
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I know it's beyond frustrating. Hang in there. I'm think about you!
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