What will happen in 2009?

As I sit here, I can olny wonder what the new year will bring. It seems like in the last few days I have been at a crossroads. I am confused as to why there are so many things that seem to be harder for me. Why does getting pregnant not come easily to me? I know that I am not the only person who has fertility problems, but I am to a point that I wonder if trying all these drugs again will change anything. I am wanting to have another child and am wondering if it will ever come to truth. We have decided not to try the adoption route, we feel that John CLinton's situation is ideal(we have minimal contact and no requests for visits). So that leaves my crazy messed up body...we know that this body doesn't always work the way that I want it to.

Wow this post has gotten kind of deep..sorry to bring anyone down, but I needed to just get it all off of my chest. I think that Matt tries to be so positive that when I want to have a deep discussion he tends to not want to talk about it. I am hoping that 2009 will give us some kind of clarity in the baby way.

Our Little Shepard

At the end of the program , when all the parents were taking pictures.

The whole cast

Our Little Shepard

Ryan and John Clinton as the Shepards

John Clinton was a shepard in the Christmas program at our church. He was very good at his shepard role even though he wouldn't leave the hay alone.

We are still alive

Wow! I can't believe I haven't blogged in such a long time. Things here have been crazy, right before Thanksgiving (like the day before) John Clinton decided to be sick and had a temperature for 4 days(YUCK). Then we found out that he will have to have his tonsils out...we go next week to see the ENT Dr. SO we will see how that goes.

Oh and don't worry-the annual Poole Christmas letter is in the mail. I am so sorry that I have not been blogging, I just know that I have so many followers. Well I promise that I will do better and try to blog more often. Oh and 5 days on Dec. 19 I will be on Christmas Break!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!!!